I worry about everything.  If there is nothing for me to worry about my brain will work overtime to come up with a whole bunch of what ifs that I should be worrying about.  But today I am very worried.

Back in March I noticed a swollen lymph node on the back of Hailey’s neck.  I thought she might be coming down with something so I waited a week before calling the doctor.  When she never got sick we went in for the doctor to check her out.  The doctor (not Hailey’s regular pediatrician) found two tiny lymph nodes swollen behind Hailey’s left ear.  They are very tiny- smaller than a pea.  She checked her all over and couldn’t find any other swollen lymph nodes.  She said that she thought the reason for the swollen lymph nodes was that Hailey still has cradle cap and sometimes that tricks the body into thinking there is an infection to fight.  The doctor said there were no concerning symptoms and that Hailey was perfectly healthy and there was nothing to worry about.  She also mentioned that sometimes it takes months for swelling in the lymph nodes to go away.

So I stopped worrying, kind of.  I still checked every time I gave Hailey her bath to see if they were gone or if she had any new swollen lymph nodes.

In June Hailey went to the doctor because she was sick.  She saw her regular pediatrician this time and I mentioned the lymph nodes were still swollen.  Hailey’s pediatrician checked her all over and found no concerning symptoms and told me that sometimes it takes a really long time for the swelling to go away.

In July at Hailey’s well visit I mentioned again that the lymph nodes were still swollen.  Again the pediatrician said that Hailey is perfectly healthy, has no symptoms of serious illness and is fine.  But Hailey’s doctor knows that I am a worrier.  So, she gave me paperwork to get blood work done to prove to me that everything is fine.  At the time Hailey was getting over a cold so her doctor told me to wait until the beginning of August before getting the blood drawn so that her cold wouldn’t throw the numbers off.

The time is here to go get the blood drawn.  We are going this morning and the results should be in by Tuesday.  I know that Hailey is probably fine- she doesn’t act sick in any way.  But I will still be worried until I get the phone call that says she is completely fine.

So I’m off to pace around the house while wringing my hands with worry.

Yup… that’s me.  On the verge of insanity.

If there is one thing that grates on the my nerves like nothing else, it is whining.  And apparently someone told Hailey that it would drive me absolutely crazy.  So she has decided to go ahead and whine.  Every day, all day long.  And yes, I know I am supposed to ignore the whining and in theory it should stop.  But I can only take so much whining before I want to throw myself on the floor and join in the whining party.  (Which I actually tried doing tonight thinking that it would make Hailey laugh and therefore stop whining.  But it only made the whining worse.)

In Haileys defense- there are several things that are probably causing her whining.  We have been home almost a week from our vacation and we’re finally getting back into our regular routine as far as bed and naptimes. So, it was an adjustment for her.  Plus, while we were on vacation Hailey had someone (grandparents, aunts, uncles) giving her attention at all times.  I can’t do that.  There are some times when I need to cook dinner or go to the bathroom or hide under the bed and it’s easier to do those things when I am not carrying a 28 pound toddler.

I really think the main cause of Hailey’s whining and crankiness is her molars.  I think she is working on getting her two year molars.  She constantly has her hands in her mouth trying to stick them all the way in the back to chew on her fingers.  So, since she is not usually like this I’m guessing the molars are probably the main cause.  Although she has never acted like this with any of her other teeth so I am not entirely sure that is the problem.  Unless the 2 year molars are worse than the others.

Anyhoo, If I am not around answering emails and comments today it is probably because I have completely lost it and am hiding in the bathroom singing softly to myself. 

And yes, I know I’m going to miss these days.  But probably not the whining.

We just got home from our vacation a little while ago.  I have all sorts of things I need to get done- unpack, do a bazillion loads of laundry, go grocery shopping (we’ve been away from home for a week and a half, so we have nothing in our refrigerator) pick up our mail from the neighbors and sort through all of the bills- you know all of that fun stuff you get to do after a vacation.  But, I thought I would do a quick post to let you know I’m back and will be back to my usual posting and commenting soon.  We had a wonderful time on our trip and of course I have pictures and stories to tell.  So, I’m off to get all of my work done so I can relax and do some blogging a little later on.

I was able to meet Pam from Random Thoughts over the weekend. It still sounds a little funny to me to say that I got to meet someone that I found on the Internet. But, anyhoo, on to our meeting.

The plan was for Rich and I to meet Pam and her hubby for breakfast. Honestly I was a little nervous about meeting Pam. What if she thought my clothes were funny looking? What if she thought I was funny looking? What if I spilled my food all over myself? What if no one knew what to talk about and we all just sat there staring at each other? What if I started rambling on and on trying to fill the silence and ended up sounding like a complete idiot? What if I overslept and missed the meeting all together?

As soon as I saw Pam and we hugged hello my nervousness was gone. It felt like I was meeting with an old friend and I was completely comfortable. Pam is the same in person and she is on her blog. And her hubby Gary was wonderful too! I had a great time and there were no uncomfortable silences. We talked and we laughed. And then we talked and laughed some more. It really just felt like I was with friends I have known since forever.

But all too soon our breakfast meeting was over and we all had to be on our way. And of course being bloggers, we both had our cameras tucked in our purses and had to pose for a picture before we went our separate ways. I’m not sure why, but Rich and Gary didn’t want to pose for a picture together.

And now I’m ready to start planning our next meet up. Maybe next time we meet we’ll be able to convince Rich and Gary that they need a picture together too.