Worried Mommy
I worry about everything. If there is nothing for me to worry about my brain will work overtime to come up with a whole bunch of what ifs that I should be worrying about. But today I am very worried.
Back in March I noticed a swollen lymph node on the back of Hailey’s neck. I thought she might be coming down with something so I waited a week before calling the doctor. When she never got sick we went in for the doctor to check her out. The doctor (not Hailey’s regular pediatrician) found two tiny lymph nodes swollen behind Hailey’s left ear. They are very tiny- smaller than a pea. She checked her all over and couldn’t find any other swollen lymph nodes. She said that she thought the reason for the swollen lymph nodes was that Hailey still has cradle cap and sometimes that tricks the body into thinking there is an infection to fight. The doctor said there were no concerning symptoms and that Hailey was perfectly healthy and there was nothing to worry about. She also mentioned that sometimes it takes months for swelling in the lymph nodes to go away.
So I stopped worrying, kind of. I still checked every time I gave Hailey her bath to see if they were gone or if she had any new swollen lymph nodes.
In June Hailey went to the doctor because she was sick. She saw her regular pediatrician this time and I mentioned the lymph nodes were still swollen. Hailey’s pediatrician checked her all over and found no concerning symptoms and told me that sometimes it takes a really long time for the swelling to go away.
In July at Hailey’s well visit I mentioned again that the lymph nodes were still swollen. Again the pediatrician said that Hailey is perfectly healthy, has no symptoms of serious illness and is fine. But Hailey’s doctor knows that I am a worrier. So, she gave me paperwork to get blood work done to prove to me that everything is fine. At the time Hailey was getting over a cold so her doctor told me to wait until the beginning of August before getting the blood drawn so that her cold wouldn’t throw the numbers off.
The time is here to go get the blood drawn. We are going this morning and the results should be in by Tuesday. I know that Hailey is probably fine- she doesn’t act sick in any way. But I will still be worried until I get the phone call that says she is completely fine.
So I’m off to pace around the house while wringing my hands with worry.
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Oh Melanie! I hope and pray everything it fine. I’m a total worrier too and have had Kya’s blood drawn 3 times now b/c of symptoms she has. They keep telling me she’s ‘most likely’ fine, but I continue to worry. I hate thinking of what it could be. Her levels have always been elevated slightly or more than slightly at each blood draw, but they say, it’s nothing to worry about and it’s probably because she had been sick or is coming down with a cold. But, still I worry. That doesn’t bring me peace. I hate it. Good luck with it all!
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I hope and pray she’s ok!!!!! I’m thinking of you both!!!!
Oh how hard to think about our babies having anything wrong. But wow, the peace in surrendering it and trusting in His provisions. They are His children and he cares for them so much more than we know how.
Yes, it’s your job to worry. That’s just how mommies operate. The blood draw should have happened the fist visit. Just saying. Better to err on the side of caution. Have a great day.
You’re the mommy – you’re supposed to worry. Getting blood drawn is not the end of the world . . . and if it makes everyone feel better, go for it! I always err on the side of caution – what if you DIDN’T check and make sure – you’d always wonder.
Thinking about you!
Well you know I am a worrier too. I worry when I feel like there is nothing to worry about
I will be thinking of you and praying for you and Hailey. I am sure it is nothing and I am glad the doctor was willing to give you the chance to get the blood drawn and get the peace of mind needed. Of course, the waiting it the worst part. If it is something, at least once you know you can fight it and fix it. If it is nothing, then you can breathe again. The waiting in between is the time I feel like I hold my breath. I hope it all works out and you have to keep us updated!
I sure hope everything is okay. I’m sure it is, but it is SO hard not to worry about our babies. Praying for you today!
I know that sometimes it is hard not to worry as a Mom.
God has given us these little bundles that need our care..and we want to do that to the best of our ability…and yes, sometimes beyond our ability.
I thank God that He has a wonderful plan for little Hailey. And I thank God that He is going to give you a little peace of mind when the results of the blood work come in.
I will be praying that all is well and God is just teaching you that He has got it all under control.
He loves her so much!
I hope everything is okay with Hailey. I had a couple lymph node scares/worries – when my kids were little too – they just scare you. Don’t worry.
Take care and see you soon – Kellan
I think you did the right thing!! I know this from first hand! You know Nancy has lupus and if we could have caught it sooner she wouldn’t be so sick now. Of course it is almost impossible to get lupus diagnosed right off the bat so I shouldn’t beat myself up! So I think it is 100 times better to err in caution then to feel later “what” could I have done sooner!
Of course you worry! If you didn’t there would be something wrong with you!!! Do I sound like your Mother yet?? lol I will be back to see what the blood work said. I will pray tonight all will be well. Love and hugs Grams
I hope Hailey is okay. I can imagine how you must be feeling because I’m a big worrywart myself….Mental torture is a hobby of sort to me…lol
I hope everything is okay!!! I agree that I think you did the right thing as well. I am a worrier but that is okay. It is our job to worry about our kids!!!
Good luck and prayers. I will be waiting to see the post that says all is fine!!!